October 2009
Its a huge improvement from the 65 (-__-) i got on the first test. sooo excited.
I’m done with the tears. I’m done trying to prove myself to you that I’m one of your better friends. I’m done fretting over the littlest things. Its time to grow up and realize that people are going to get in my way. They need to move ahead. You picked a girl you met last year over one of your closest friends of 3 years. You rather call me names, than actually sit down and ask me if I said those things. You rather see me in tears, and not care that I’m deeply saddened. You rather say this friendship is over than not be a mature person and figure out the misunderstandings. You are real quick to say that I’m fake, but you are friends with the most fakest people i know. I’m not mad at you anymore. I’m done crying and I’m done moping. Friends come and go. My bestfriend Kandace told me this would happen. I’m glad it happened now. So, i dont have to deal with people being fake to me. I’m one of the truest people out there and you don’t seem to see that. So, goodbye Alex and i hope you realize that you lost a good friend. Be mature, don’t act like someone you’re not. But, that wont happen.
Ahhhhhh, when I say I love Panic at the Disco, I do. Well, Panic at the Disco, before they split in half. But anywayyyssss, I lovee these 4 boys, together or not. So, to celebrate my mood because I’m deff excited for Halloween, we have the song, “It’s Almost Halloween” by Panic At the Disco. Enjoy.
“Everybody scream. Everybody scream. It’s almost Halloween, do the trick-or-treat…”
I feel like listening to music but the second I start to listen to my ipod , I skip through EVERY song .
(via weegee)
I’m tired of what I’m doing. I’m tired of sitting here and walking around and realizing that I’m sick and tired of this shit! Omg!
I want to scream!
Sooo much is going on and I want to just say fuck it all!
I’m trying to get my portfolio together, so I can answer the question that has been floating around in my brain.
Do I really want to do this? Do I really want to become a writer?
Years ago, I didnt worry about shit like college! It wasn’t even in my vocabulary or my thought process. I just slept, wrote, ate and dreamt. That was it and it was soooo easy.
Now, I have ish like SAT’s &_Regents to pass. Honor classes to keep up in. Colleges to explore and grades to improve. WTF? who has the patience for this? Im bored with life.
I want to take a trip. Buy me a plane ticket?
- Me: lol. definintly, maybe. it has a special meaning to me, I guess. I've had at least 4 of these books, all full to the brim. I need a new one. trying to figure out my life here.
- Me: lol. okay. one day, these books are going to turn into things i'll publish. so exciting.
- Justin : thats cool. maybe ill go pick em up when they do
- Me: lolsx. awesomee. i'll autograph some copies for you also.
- Justin : lol. awesome.
- I never actually met this boy Justin Carter. I do know he goes to Xaverian High School. And he's friends with all the Bay Ridge girls in my school. I do, however, speak to him on the regular and i see why people love him.
- He's really awesome. He believes in me and we never even met., sighhh.
I fell at Grand Army Plaza today. What a joyous occassion. It was raining hard, and it was freezing. I stepped somewhere wrong ( a pothole, only cuz there was maddd deep pudddles and shit on the floor) and i fell on my butt in the middle of the street.
right in front of a car
First reaction:
WTF? FUCKKK, MY SKIRT!
Rachelle looked at me, like how did she fall? Her face was hilarious. & then, i got up and walked to the library.
I wanted to laugh sooooo bad. But it was too cold outside.
brrrrr……now, i have warm tea.
Justin Timberlake - I Think She Knows (Interlude)
____________I love this part of “Lovestoned”, at the end when the beat breaks down. John Mayer called it 45 seconds of “ultimate sonic bliss” and he was right on.
This is my favorite piece of musical work from Justin Timberlake, and it’s only 2:30 long.
My fav. too.
So, I havent posted a song on here in a while. This has been on repeat for a whole month. I don’t understand why it was(and still is), but it is. I’m just in love. When I’m awake 2 in the morning because of my deficient insomnia, I tune to this and other similar things. sighhh. Wait until I post Matchbox Twenty later on. =)
“When The Lights Go Down”, by Ernie Halter
Don’t leave me waitin’
For the love I need, oh no
Swearin’ on me
I don’t want to know that there’s someone you found
When the lights go down
So many memories behind
Can’t you see, we’re losing time
I ain’t gonna find out, that love lost its crown
When the lights go down
Once we were something
And we took to the sky
I ain’t gonna find out, that love can’t be found
When the lights go down
Don’t try to be fair
Don’t try to be kind
We both know, you’ve made up your mind
I keep holding on, without hearing a sound
When the lights go down
Once, oh we were something
And we took to the sky
I ain’t gonna find out, who turned you around
When the lights go down
Don’t leave me here, the lights go down
Don’t leave me, don’t leave me here, the lights go down
Don’t leave me, don’t leave me here, the lights go down
me too ; download the whole album
haha i love that song!
your sex is on fire - kings of leon
Kings of Leon is amazing, i would like to say that for the record. &_ Sex On Fire is one of my favorite songs. Hands down.
“Head while I’m driving….”<——-smfh. lmao.
&_ to my best friend, Rachelle (via http://picassochic.tumblr.com/), be jealous!
LMAOO. ily x a bunch of nutella.
“Alpha Dog” was on the whole “New Administration” Mixtape that came out on last year, around the time of the elections.
Add a few more verses, change some words, and all of that jazz, and you get this new, improved song, exclusively on the ” Believer’s Never Die - Greatest Hits” cd, that’ll be coming out next month.
Loveeeeee this.
:/
I’m rethinking my decision to be in honors US History. I’m under too much pressure.
I question this everyday. This is why I’m sort of happy I’m not a good writer. cause Mr. Kozak would have put me in AP. Then I would have died.
at least you would’ve still ended up in an honors class. I was asked to go into one. if i didnt get tht 91 on my regents, i woulda been in regents class.
you pull a good argument dear friend. now right your thesis. :)
ughhhhhh. i dont know anything at all.
:/
I’m rethinking my decision to be in honors US History. I’m under too much pressure.
I question this everyday. This is why I’m sort of happy I’m not a good writer. cause Mr. Kozak would have put me in AP. Then I would have died.
at least you would’ve still ended up in an honors class. I was asked to go into one. if i didnt get tht 91 on my regents, i woulda been in regents class.
:/
I’m rethinking my decision to be in honors US History. I’m under too much pressure.
- Elson: yo, i think you should tweet that I'm in twitterjail. lmfaoo.
- Me: Why?
- Elson: I can't tweet, duh? lmaooo.
- Me: *tweets this ----->hahahahaha. @eloswaggs2wavyy is in #twitterjail riqht now! smfh. dnt worry ladies, he'll back soon. dnt worry. =) *
- Minutes later.....
- Samantha: ohshit how did he end up in twitter jail?
- Me: *on aim*. bestie, what should i tell Sammi about twitter jail?
- Elson: tell her that sidekicks are blocking my swagg. lmaooo
- Me: *on twitter* lmfaoo. cuz, his sidekick is cockblockinq him. lmao. 'sidekicks are blockinq his swaqq'. lmfaoooooo.
- Sammi : lmaoo i dont get it ( u kno im slow break it down )
- Me: lmao. his twitter ap on his fone is fuckinq up. so, he cnt qo on twitter. and the web browser fuckinq up too.
- Me: -__- <-----face towards Samantha.
- *i would like to say that this girl is really slow, she's not playing. lmaoo.
I don’t understand why people hate me for some reason. wtf? I dont get this shit!
BITCH, I DIDN’T FUCK UP YOUR REALTIONSHIP WITH MY BESTFRIEND. I DIDN’T EVEN TAKE HIM FROM YOU. NOT MY FAULT IF YOU WERE JUST THIS INSECURE BITCH THAT THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO TAKE HIM FROM YOU. I WAS JUST THE NICE FRIEND THAT TRIED TO GET YOU AND HIM TOGETHER. DONT FUCKING G ME. GET YOUR FACTS STRAIGHT BEFORE YOU WANT TO HATE ME RANDOMLY.
SHIT. sorry, i just needed to release some frustration.
&& if i wanted him, I coulda been had him. bitch!
I hate being sick. It sucks. I can barely sing well enough in Gospel Choir. I can barely breathe when the windows aren’t open. smfh. I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I GOT SICK! UGHHHHHH.
It’s been so fucking long. I can’t remember the last time I stared at the mirror for hours. Trying to figure out myself. Trying to figure out why I resemble a decaying soul. What am I? The question will always be unanswered.
The faceless fucking ghoul I’ve become, will never fade away. My soul will never stop draining. A disgusting smile is carved, the putrid empty eyes will always endure. Who am I? The question will always be unanswered.
Surrounded by confused, despicable souls. Trying to pull me down the fucking drain of pure regrets. Walking phantoms and torturing apparitions waving back at eachother. Laughing at worthless scum, the successful wonderful expandable beings. Where am I? The questions will always be unanswered.
I’ve had enough. Really.
- Me: Imma fight @pineappleluv - Rachelle.
- Rachelle: I will eff you up in a fight kidd. I don't play. just like tyler durden. lolsx.
- Me: son, I am brad pitt.
- Rachelle: son. I'm Tyler Durden. (the sane version)
- Me: i'm still brad pitt. I gets the pussy. don't lie.
- Rachelle: w.e hoe. lolsx.
- Me: u mad cuz u (tyler durdan) don't get the pussayyy
- Rachelle: look Tyler Durden was getting some from Marla Singer. He's too busy to doing crazy shit to be getting pussy. lolsx.
- Me: lmfaoo. true. holy shit. why aren't we having this convo on tumblr? fail.
- Rachelle: I can't believe we're talking about this. word. we do get a fail. when are you going on the computer?
- Me: lmfao. cuz, we r awesome. in a sec. start the tumble post. lolsx.
- lmfaooooo. ilyyyy picassochic. you rock my socks. even with our fights.
my dear dear gissey is still not talking to me. *sigh*
lolsx. follow her ——>(http://gisseybx3.tumblr.com)
Its your fault that im not talking to you. lolsx. smfh.
lolsx. I still don’t get what I did. hehehe
bitch. lolsx. yuh know what yuh did. yuh got an 88 on tht test. that you thought you failed. -__-. i hate you. lolsx.
my dear dear gissey is still not talking to me. *sigh*
lolsx. follow her ——>(http://gisseybx3.tumblr.com)
Its your fault that im not talking to you. lolsx. smfh.
